Man, death stings, from a cat to a dog to a human, it hurts, permanently. The feeling of deep hopelessness is unbearable. You want to be mad, you want to just sit in bed and scream, but it doesn't bring them back, nothing will. That feeling of pure tragedy and sadness yet anger some how, makes every thing seem like the world's worst joke. And while that last stage of grief is acceptance, I don't think anyone has truly gotten there. I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope you feel better in time dude.